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Jun. 11th, 2010

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I wouldn't sleep with me either.

May. 8th, 2010

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Even though it's been five years and I get to be with my son whenever I'd like, I spend Birth Mother's Day angry and slightly sad followed by Mother's Day in which I just have a cloud that comes and sweeps over me and if someone were to make eye contact with me I surely would burst into tears.


For me, Mother's Day is way worse than missing his birthday.

May. 6th, 2010

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All of this "it's not you, it's me." bullshit is getting fucking old.

Apr. 29th, 2010

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no one can dismantle adria's obstacle course, got it?

I've been making lists, searching pictures, scanning my brain for triggers or things I've missed from other people to reassure myself. Finally came to the conclusion that the only reoccurring theme is me.

Mar. 27th, 2010

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that? Surprised me, too.

It's now 1.10 am.

What I HAVE managed to get done for my Grandma's 90th Birthday tomorrow:

Bruschetta and toasted the crostini
Made 50 oven baked won ton cups
Shredded chicken/cabbage, made mango salsa and crumbled up feta to fill cups with
45 Asiago cups
White cheddar, manchego and gouda macaroni and cheese that I'll put in the asiago cups.
Both layers of her cake (Martha Stewart... I love that even when using cake flour, you still ask me to sift it no less than 4 times.)
Vanilla cake with two added cups of fresh, crushed strawberries.
It's going to be double layer 14 inch master of sugar and butter.. Yaay.
Cream cheese/mascarpone/strawberry frosting

What's left?
MORE damn asiago baskets, finish baking off cake layers, level, wrap and freeze them. Make pastry cream for between cake layers, pick up edible flowers for garnish and I need to make sure I don't forget her damn candles from my apartment.

So on other news... Nothing really. Currently housesitting for Jenny and Damon while they're away on vacation until April 7th. It's nice, I must say. Gorgeous house, amazing kitchen, even MORE time to myself than I already have.. which is slightly sad at times but meh.

Everyone seems to be really busy all the time, myself included. I'm missing Marcus and Morgan like mad but seems to be difficult to track 'em down.

And so...in 14 hours from now I'll be enduring my Grandmother's 90th Birthday with all of my relatives.. My crazy, crazy relatives.

With the help of Jenny, I'm getting kinda fuzzy... I want this other cake layer to finish cooking so I can finally pass out from this day. In such a comfortable bed.

Feb. 28th, 2010

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dance around the rumor mill..

....If I were to collect all of the bible verses all of my cousins, Aunts and Grandmother post on facebook, fairly certain I'd have the whole damn book in a week. I'm not saying that because I don't believe in god, my family shouldn't either.... Everyone has their own beliefs and I respect that totally. It just gets a bit ridiculous when every time I log on, that's all I can read.

In other news, nothing much has changed. Just working, working and working. Feeling quite hermit like on the weekends I DON'T have catering... Think my friends get used to me never being free on those days and just kind of stopped trying. Or.. they just don't think of me, hah. Either way, my days just sort of meld together into one long stretch of reading and dissecting everything I do.

But! I AM quite excited. August 31st, I've got myself a smokin' hot date with Shane.. We're going to see Dave Matthews Band! She was equally as excited as I was when she learned they were coming. We even shelled out and got the upgraded tickets so we aren't stuck in the nosebleed section and this way we actually get to see the stage.

Dec. 31st, 2009

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....

Amanda's babies died at home, at 1am this morning.

Have a heavy, heavy heart. They showed the doctors up and rallied to make it through the 10 days they were given and made it a little over a month.

I am so sorry, little guys.

Dec. 8th, 2009

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....

My cousin Amanda had her twins via c-section a few days ago.

The babies are conjoined with two heads but only one heart, two legs and two arms. From what I've heard, they share all major organs inside their body. The survival rate for conjoined twins like them is sadly low. Most are stillborn and those that aren't usually only live for 24 hours or so.

They've been marked as DNR and she's taken the boys home with her and her husband, to spend as much time as possible with them before they go.

Ugh. So sad..

Nov. 26th, 2009

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baking slut.

I'm not usually one to brag but I feel gloating is much needed today.

The cranberry pumpkin ginger upside-down cake is AMAZING. For not using a recipe at all and just making the ingredients up.. it rocks.


...happy bloody massacre and stealing of native american's land day!

Nov. 25th, 2009

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"adria, I just threw my trash in your villa!"

Haven't seen him in a month.. A handful of one word texts is all I've had. The longer the month goes, the more I see this situation as unchanging.


Anyone who knows me is benefiting from this though! I've gone into my usual crazy bake mode. Last ten days I've made:
Keylime pie
Peanut butter chocolate chip cookies
Cranberry swirl cheesecake
Banana bread
Cranberry gingerbread upside down cake
Vanilla sugar
Vanilla cupcakes with lemon curd and butter cream frosting


I am a woman possessed.. Most of what I made DOES have a purpose though.. family birthday stuff, Thanksgiving, "adria says cheer up!" cookies..

Work has been much, much, much better. Now that I've got Amy in the kitchen with me, I have so much more help that I actually enjoy my job again. Who knew! She's awesome and we get along really well. With the two of us, we've got a fully functional restaurant going. It's a good change, as we've been getting more and more busy. The old system and amounts aren't even CLOSE to what we need daily. An average day now is 1,500 which for only being open 4 hours a day is pretty impressive.

Meh. I'm using distraction as a method, which kind of works. Worsens it that he can *say* it has nothing to do with me but why go from seeing each other on a normal basis to absolutely nothing.

....let the baking commence!

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